Ah work

Last night , I think I had an adrenaline  rush or something.... 10 pallets of Health and beauty care was stocked out... Oh  yea and  6 Totes filled with products...
  Oh yea, I ache now..
Was  it work?
OR...
Was it  me  getting older?

I have  a co-worker  who is lazy(JOY).. or who  makes a turtle jealous...
I asked  her since she is doing the bath products and that might end up in the grocery aisle( if  she  will take 2 friggin xoxes over with her to see if they will go out...  She  said I  should  make you just work it,,


Noted: she may  have  done  half a skid all  night long ... While.. Kaylene  and I have  worked out 4 peoples' work... note what I said how many above...

I just wanted to go up next  to her and just slap her..
I  said  fu...  to her to myself.....  eh, :P  Ended  up I didn't need them at all and they ended up being back  stock...
I had a friggin back ache all night  and  still can  win a marathon against her... Special one  or not:P


I am mad at bosses  too...
@ of them   told me forget  about asking  for days  off in December so I never ask for my days  off for my b-day  or the day before
 Found out...   my part-timer  lazy liar-man -chaser,(no naming her...{that is all  she gets from me} just  ask a few days  off  and she got it... I was like wtf???? On  MY b-day  no less..

Oh let's say this,,, Now  I have 4 weeks of vacation total  and 6 personal paid days left...... until next November.... I am taking one in January... whether  I go some place or not..... At least I am  waiting until after the holidays.

Jan, ,may  July,,,,October I am looking into  for Vacations......

It's that time of year again

This is  mostly the time of year that I would just love to hide and become a bear.. Hibernate.

I don't know  if it's because  of  all the mixed emotions from other people.... The Cold,  driving on ice or snow.
People wouldn't think I shouldn't be... My  thirty-eighth birthday is coming up.. December fifteenth ..
Christmas... New years..

Just let me say this... I used to love  birthdays.. I like others more than mine...
I used to love Christmas..... Seventeen years  of  working retail will  ruin  that.
I recently loss(okay ,last year) the person I have been looking  for  for a while... MY --from  elementary through  high school--Best friend,.When I found her... Only a few messages from  her  than ..~poof  I got a message from her brother that she had  many mental disorders  that  she had committed suicide... Was missing since Dec. 11th,, killed herself around  then.. They found her right before Christmas..
She would've been thirty-nine next month...

Some days when I am lying in bed, I  look up and start talking to her even though she can't reply back..
Then my tears come ..

Think another part of my problem  is my debt issue.. Every time  I get ahead for my goal to end that..Something else  pokes its' ugly  head out..

I will be 38,  back living with my dad... getting stressed  over  my sister and her 3 kids..
I have  a brain  that  doesn't function to well...(Learning disability)
I get  to emotional( negative this time of year...)

I feel  like 1 person is hurting me and another one  is trying to distance themselves away...
An online  best friend is hurting so badly  and will be hospitalized soon... and I can't do anything for him.
I do not know why...
I do not take  any relationship  for granted,, love or just friends.

I don't open up much.. maybe..I do  to some and  that scares them?

Might be afraid that  someone  can  use that against me
I try  to joke  to make everyone laugh even though I am trying to make myself too


I dislike the freezing rain, and the snow that gets stuck on the roads...